Have you ever just wanted to turn back time? or wondered where everything had gone wrong with in those moments of time when nothing ever seemed to go right?

To take a step back to have one less breath and a heart that no longer feels heavy and full of pain.

Im not a god, Im not perfect; I too make mistakes and can become blind to what is around me. To what is or was the most important thing to me.

I cant bring back what was lost, nor can I expect it to just reappear in front of me. The consequence of self actions. Is self Destruction.

and I have realized, To be strong is also to be weak, and I have failed in both my emotions and where my heart truly rested...

and for that.

I am eternally sorry.